Elsen again — I’d need to “apologize” bc when I was away at college I didn’t have a job, and so I would use my parents’ money to buy useless stuff (I started collecting vintage toys like crazy because there were a lot) to play up the whole “daydreamer/eccentric/permanent child” archetype. I must have spend at least $500 over the last three years. They’re paying all my hospital bills and stuff and here I was buying junk bc “that’s just the way I am” and it’s not even the way I *actually* am…

Well, here is my advice. We all do stupid things in our youth. Its a period of finding yourself, and learning who you are- for…

Elsen again — no, the thing is… I don’t know how familiar you are with “OFF” but Elsen aren’t very… “exciting.” Basically they kinda just take orders. And I’m starting to realize that the main reason I act so vocally eccentric is because people have always told me that it’s “better to stand out.” I don’t -like- standing out! I’m just doing it because I’m “supposed” to. So either way I’m still taking orders… I just feel like a decade plus of misconceptions is too much to apologize for.

I don’t really see what you have to apologize for, personally. But then, I don’t really see a way out of your situation either. I…

0h, uh… c00l. Uh, I’ve g0t a wh0le bunch 0f headmates, it’s kinda weird actually. S0mething we’ve talked ab0ut is their interacti0n with the w0rld. After discussi0n, 0ne 0f them (a girl named BeckySarah) explained that I (the 0ne wh0 this b0dy 0riginally bel0nged t0) act as a buffer between them and the real w0rld. When they interact with the 0utside w0rld, we “merge” and bec0me 0ne in s0me ways. At this p0int it’s pretty much imp0ssible t0 tell wh0’s wh0.

Are you familiar with Multiplicity/Plurality? It sounds to me like you’re a median system. http://astraeasweb.net/plural/glossary.html

so uh a few days ago i think i awakened as an Elsen from OFF and it explains SO much about myself, but the thing is it also means that a huge chunk of my “personality” was just a front so people didn’t see my (extremely dull and persuadable) inner self, and now i’m flipping back and forth between denial and acceptance because on one hand i feel so -right- accepting it but on the other this will offput a lot of people because i’ve been acting as “the outgoing eccentric” for a decade. advice?

I feel conflicted in the advice I should give you, my friend, so I’m afraid I may not be as helpful as you might wish.…