is it bad that i try to stop kinshifts when they happen? i’m fickin and i have bpd so i tend to latch on to the identity of my most prominent kintypes, but the last time i really had a kinshift was earlier january because i found every time after that that i started to shift i felt really uncomfortable as if i was suddenly losing my identity or something so i would immediately take away what was causing the shift and find something that would make me shift back to the character i was before
This is a really complicated question. For one thing, I don’t have BPD, so I’m not sure if I can give you the kind of help you need.
Being fictionkin isn’t about latching onto the identities of other people – your fictotype identities are your identities. A shift just causes one aspect at a time to be more prominent, but the others don’t disappear or stop being you. When I’m Ichigo, I’m also Inuyasha and Tidus and everything else. Mental shifts don’t cause you to become a different person or a 2D character, although hyper fixating on one shift at a time isn’t unusual or bad.
But if it’s making you feel distressed, then try to isolate why. Are these fictional characters you just use as a personality replacement due to your BPD, or are they actually you? If you feel like you’re losing yourself in the personalities of characters, you might need to step back and examine your fictionkin identity in general. Shifts can be powerful things, but they shouldn’t make you feel out of touch with yourself, because genuine fictotypes -are- yourself.
And I don’t say this to be exclusionary, I say it because if your BPD is causing you to cling to characters, and gradually creating an identity crisis for you that’s having a negative impact on your mental health, calling it fictionkin and continuing to cling to these characters might not be the best thing for you. If it’s a coping mechanism, remember that those can be, or become, maladaptive.
