About kin memories: do all kin have those? I have three kin types I have discovered over the years but only memories from one, and I have no way of knowing if I fabricated those or not. Does this mean I’m not really kin? (Genuine question) I know I get species dysphoria at rare times and yearn for where I used to exist, at least for two of my kins, but I have no memories at all for my fic type even though I know for certain I am kin with him… (Srry if u can’t answer!)
Memories aren’t a requirement. They’re (usually) something only those who believe in reincarnation get at all, although… reading some things from @anexpertonboredom, I think psychological kin can experience something like memories also. It’s possible to be both spiritual and non, varying between kintypes, so you can look into the possibility that the ones you have no memories for have a different origin than the one you do have them for.
But in any case, memories can be tricky to come by without a lot of active effort, and even more patience. Sometimes an hour of focus will reward you with a flicker of a moment and nothing more than that. When people come to me worrying about this, I tell them to try and remember exactly what they were doing in any month last year. It’s really hard to, aside from big events. Kin memories are pulling from different universes, different timelines, so the difficulty level is pretty high. Don’t get too discouraged.
Your reference to him in the 3rd person makes me have to ask, to be sure – are you certain that this is you, and not someone you perhaps knew? Or who might be a headmate? Aside from multiple systems, soulbonds are a thing, and they can be easy to confuse with kintypes initially because the bond between you can be so strong. This also applies to being fictionhearted.
