I feel mostly fine now…
I think I just got triggered a bit after seeing various otherkin haters on YouTube (I didn’t know what I was expecting…) That shit keep popping out my recommend feed. I’ve started ignoring that though…
But right now I still haven’t found a stable answer… I wish to confirm my lost identity, but I still question whether or not this is a waste of time… as much as I absolutely believe on Reincarnation and the Multiverse theory, I don’t know if speculating on something truly passed is worth it… I’m growing up now, I’m starting to have a life, would it matter if I’m a dragon once in my past???I see a lot of people with issues of their own, they truly feel like they’re not of this body, while I…. am very comfortable with it. I feel proud of my body mostly despite feeling I was being held back by it’s weaknesses sometime…
But overall what I hated is my mental state… I feel absolutely torn on many things, and what’s worst is that I completely feel that my problems are petty…
I guess… I’m still at that state… completely unsure of my self…
But as I’m writing this down I’m starting to feel fine little by little… I hardly think my past memories might comeback, I’m not too interested in living in the past, I just want to know why I’m like this now, and if it turns out I am what I think I am then I’ll move on, take into my heart what I once was but not letting it rule who I am now…
Because I am a human now… and that’s reality…
You don’t have to spend time agonizing over it, if it’s not a positive thing for you. The thing is, a lot of people who aren’t otherkin believe in nonhuman reincarnation. The part the makes you Other in this life is when it still effects you to the point that it’s imprinted on your identity today, and you continue to feel, nonphysically, as it. It’s inescapable. But there are probably countless people out there who were other things in different lifetimes, but they don’t remember it and they don’t care to remember it. Everyone’s different.
Don’t force anything. You can identify as a human and be completely happy that way, even if you know you used to be something else. If you really want to know, you’ll figure things out eventually, but it shouldn’t be like pulling teeth.
