I see a lot of people saying how much they want to connect to the people from their canon and they see themselves as still the character or thing they were kin with, while I just want to put it all behind me and try to disconnect from it. Is this normal? Should I feel bad?

You should absolutely not feel bad. People deal with being kin in different ways. Honestly, the current obsession with finding ‘canonmates’ is… pretty new honestly, especially looking for people who share your exact memories. I remember a time where people felt pretty lucky to find people who even shared the same source material, let alone the same universe.

That’s not to say that wanting to find canonmates is bad either. (However it CAN open you up to abuse and manipulation from less honest people). But basically, no you’re not weird for wanting to put it behind you. Lots of people do, and honestly I think it can be very mature to want to focus on this life.