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So lately a realized something weird – and by lately I mean since December or so. I often feel ‘disconnected’ with my body and the first thing that comes into my mind is Chara. I kinda feel like at that exact moment I’m them – I can feel what they do, have their memories, ‘feel’ their relationships with others. And it’s not only at these moments – I always feel these things, but not as strong as then. I’m not sure if I’m kin with them, but if I am… I’m kinda scared of that. (cont.)

(Chara kin cont.) I’m not scared of being kin – not at all – it’s the character. The whole Undertale fandom sees Chara as the…

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Feeling like you’re missing abilities is a part of being kin right? Because I’m questioning being kin with a character who is a telepath. Throughout my whole life, even when I was little, I’ve thought it was extremely weird that I wasn’t able to hear other people’s thoughts. I felt like I was missing a part of my life that was very important. Same with telekinesis, I’ve been obsessed for awhile and always thought I needed it (the character has it). Is this a kin experience?

Feeling like you’re missing abilities, like telekinesis/telepathy can definitely be considered a kin experience.

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I don’t know how to identify my system. While on one hand I am not diagnosed with DID and OSDD, I can’t deny the existence of my bonds. I labeled myself as a bond system in order to stress that I was not DID, and I was attacked for it and told I wasn’t allowed to use the word system because I wasn’t DID, even though my bonds came about as a result of years of emotional and verbal ab*se. I don’t know what to do, and it seems I am caught between deny the existence of my bonds and throwing a fit…

Just ignore the people who try to deny you exist and that your experiences are real. A wise anon once told me this: Don’t fall…

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