So I recently discovered that I might be kin with someone and now I’m trying to recover memories from “my canon”. The problem is that in canon I suffered from PTSD due to severe trauma and I also do now from trauma that happened a few years ago. Could it now be that I will never be able to access those memories from my canon because of the trauma that my brain is trying to block out?

It could be that you won’t– and possibly that’s for the best. If your mind is protecting you from something its for a reason. However,…

Sorry to bother you, but I have a bit of a dilemma. I have memories I know I can access, but I’m not sure if I should. As far as I can tell, I may have witnessed the death of someone I loved–every time I come across anything in the fandom that even references that person’s death, I start feeling really panicked and upset. I think I may have blocked out the memories on purpose. … I think I held him in my arms as he died. Should I try and look into this or am I better off not knowing?

Ouch, anon, I’m saddened to hear that. :/ Honestly, the thing about bad memories is they tend to be the ones that come whether you…

Can memories come more… idk.. passively? Like, I don’t usually dream at all at night unless I have a fever, but sometimes I think of something that just feels.. right. Like, when it comes to mind it’s just so overwhelmingly real, like any other memory, and… I dunno, it just feels like it really happened.

Absolutely. Not all memories come in dreams and not all are extremely vivid or concrete. Sometimes you just *know* something. Its weird.

Do you ever just think of something and it sounds like it could be a memory, so you write it down but when you think about it later, it just doesn’t feel right? Also, story/random ideas and memories, ever mix them up? I sort of just started contemplating the thought that I’m fictionkin and it’s still early, but it feels right, but I’ve always made up stories in my head and… well it’s confusing.

Unfortunately, sorting out what are really memories and what aren’t can be really confusing, especially when you’re starting out. Its a process that takes time,…

Is it possible to have kin memories without realizing they’re memories? I’m pretty sure I’m fictionkin, and there’s this character I made up that I accidently made very similar in some ways to a character I think I’m kin of, and was without knowing these things about that character. They have similar species, similar names, similar personalities, similar lives, etc. I made up my character in November 2015, I didn’t know anything except the species of the character I’m kin of until Dec/Jan 15/16

Its absolutely possible to not recognize memories for what they are. And its especially easy to mix memories into fictional ideas when you’re writing/