how do i get over the fear of remembering traumatising or bad things? i want to try and remember my past lives, but i fear ill fall into remembering something really horrible.

That’s hard, anon. Sometimes that fear never really goes away. But we can do things to minimize it. I recommend you read about, and talk to others about the happy memories that they’ve gotten as kin. Sometimes the best way to avoid negative thoughts and memories is just to put ourselves in a good, positive space mentally.