old tumblr postsJuly 24, 2018

News about this blog and its author

Hi all. I’m going to try to make this as short as possible, because I tend to ramble. I have been trying to make a…

old tumblr postsSeptember 23, 2017

Please stop calling fictives “alterhuman” and lumping them in with otherkin. fictive is a DID/OSDD made term and is such a broad spectrum it doesn’t belong with otherkin or IDs at all. You’re making it harder for us to be taken seriously.

selfcareisknives: fromfiction: Fictive is a soulbonder/endogenic term that was graciously shared with the DID/OSDD community, please stop trying to appropriate it. Is it really? Do…

old tumblr postsMay 9, 2017

Is it possible to experience both shifts and fronting??

A person who is both kin, and a part of a multiple system may experience both shifts and fronting.

old tumblr postsFebruary 1, 2017

Hello Felix! I’m the host of an endogenic system, and we recently realized that many syscoursers take issue with us using the term system, rather than believing us to be fake. However, the term collective has also been used by DID/DDNOS systems, not that we’d really enjoy using that word anyway. It feels too.. unfamiliar? Whereas we feel (mostly) tightly knit. Is there a word already in the community for specifically endogenic systems? If not, do you have any ideas?

Hooboy. Uh, I started using the word collective to avoid “system” syscourse. If people are taking issue with that too, I don’t really know what to…

old tumblr postsAugust 22, 2016

whats the difference between a headmate and alter?

Alter is a DID/OSDD-1 specific term, and refers only to headmates created by trauma.

old tumblr postsJuly 31, 2016

Any advice for people telling me I’m a fake system? If I have multiples, fictives and tulpas all in my head who are separate from me… that makes me a real system right? Or is that not how it works?

My advice for anyone being told they’re a ‘fake system’ is to ignore it. You and your headmates know if you’re real or not.

old tumblr postsJuly 28, 2016

Do you have any advice on possible plurality? I was thinking I might have an accidental Tulpa, but I really don’t know. I had made a persona for use, but she evolved much past what I intended and I feel like I’m not making design decisions, but reflecting what is proper now. I feel her in my mind, not vocally but almost as a separate being? I’m not really sure what to do on this honestly.

My best advice would be to research plurality/multipicity, both on this blog, other tumblrs, and off tumblr, and see how you feel about it and…

old tumblr postsJuly 18, 2016

Could you explain a bit about fronting?

Fronting is something that only happens to members of systems. To “Front” means to come to the front of the headspace and pilot the body. If…

old tumblr postsJuly 15, 2016

I don’t know how to identify my system. While on one hand I am not diagnosed with DID and OSDD, I can’t deny the existence of my bonds. I labeled myself as a bond system in order to stress that I was not DID, and I was attacked for it and told I wasn’t allowed to use the word system because I wasn’t DID, even though my bonds came about as a result of years of emotional and verbal ab*se. I don’t know what to do, and it seems I am caught between deny the existence of my bonds and throwing a fit…

Just ignore the people who try to deny you exist and that your experiences are real. A wise anon once told me this: Don’t fall…

old tumblr postsJuly 15, 2016

Someone told me my system isn’t ‘real’ because it was -learned- at the age of 14 rather than -formed- 6-9.

They’re wrong. Your system may not be based in DID, which means its not medically recognized as a disorder, but that’s all that means. If…