I have a phatom weight on my back Like it os a pair of wings and I have extremely vived dreams of taking people from this life and taking them to the beginning of the next one its weird or am I just crazy

Those do sound like they could point to having a kintype, or to some other mental or spiritual phenomenon. 

If you have dreams of taking people to the next life, have you researched shinigami of various types? That might be a good avenue to explore.