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Sorry to bother you, but I have a bit of a dilemma. I have memories I know I can access, but I’m not sure if I should. As far as I can tell, I may have witnessed the death of someone I loved–every time I come across anything in the fandom that even references that person’s death, I start feeling really panicked and upset. I think I may have blocked out the memories on purpose. … I think I held him in my arms as he died. Should I try and look into this or am I better off not knowing?

Ouch, anon, I’m saddened to hear that. :/ Honestly, the thing about bad memories is they tend to be the ones that come whether you…

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How should one go about coming to terms with having a kintype that they consider embarrassing, strange, ridiculous, etc.? I’m not sure if you’ve answered this before, and I’m sorry if you have, but I’ve been struggling with “beating myself up” (for the lack of a better phrase) over having a kintype and it’s not really fun.. (Sorry if this is worded poorly. Don’t really know how to put it, haha.)

Oof, its a struggle, anon. I have seen some people with really conventionally ‘embarrassing’ kintypes. Donald Duck, and Thomas the Tank Engine are the most recent.…

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I have this strange on/off kintype? I had a hard time believing if my feelings were genuine, so i decided to drop it and act like it never happened. But it keeps lingering back every other day or so, like it’s not something that ever went away, and I feel faith in it again. Then I tell myself I might be deceiving myself and it dies down again only to come back. When this happens I feel it’s me at core. I have only one memory and a little nostalgia but I disproved it so it can’t be real.

Hmmm, could be a lot of things. It could be a kintype that’s not very strong, so you think you’ve ‘disproved’ it. You could be fictionhearted.…

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Can memories come more… idk.. passively? Like, I don’t usually dream at all at night unless I have a fever, but sometimes I think of something that just feels.. right. Like, when it comes to mind it’s just so overwhelmingly real, like any other memory, and… I dunno, it just feels like it really happened.

Absolutely. Not all memories come in dreams and not all are extremely vivid or concrete. Sometimes you just *know* something. Its weird.

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I’ve finally accepted that I might be kin and… tbh I find it comforting? Like, I’m terrified of death, especially the idea that my consciousness will stop existing altogether. Getting flashes of emotion and memory from what might be a past life makes it seem less terrifying. If I can recall a past life like that, it means somewhere down the line a different me might be able to access the memories of now. The current me won’t just fade into nonexistence.

I know how you feel, anon. Its comforting to me for the same reason ^^

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Do you ever just think of something and it sounds like it could be a memory, so you write it down but when you think about it later, it just doesn’t feel right? Also, story/random ideas and memories, ever mix them up? I sort of just started contemplating the thought that I’m fictionkin and it’s still early, but it feels right, but I’ve always made up stories in my head and… well it’s confusing.

Unfortunately, sorting out what are really memories and what aren’t can be really confusing, especially when you’re starting out. Its a process that takes time,…

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