I’m so sorry, I don’t know if this has been answered before, but this is really causing me some grief… I always hear of kin talking about their memories as their kintype. I have no memories. Instead, I have strong desires and thoughts like ‘I need to look like this character again. This body isn’t me anymore’ and desires to have objects my kintype had (ie certain jewellery)… Does that make me any less of a fictionkin? I think about this constantly,and having no memories makes me feel invalid

Same anon without memories… Furthermore, I have a lot of coincidences. I’ve always loved albinism and wantd to be one, and wanted to be left handed, and wanted to have red eyes, and always liked the direction East without reason. Even since I was a toddler, way before I discovered my kins source. I just don’t know anymore… Any help would be so appriciated. I have no one else to talk to…

Memories (generally) make someone kin, but NOT having memories doesn’t make you NOT kin. Not every kin has memories, or strong memroies, or clear memories, of their kinself.

I’d like to stress too, that kin memories aren’t always always visual/spacial memories. Sometimes they’re smells, or tastes, or senses of touch. Sometimes, like you’re experiencing, its the memory of your body being different. 

Sometimes kin memories are just *feelings*. Sometimes its just X feels right to me.

For me I have lots of strong visual spacial memories- as Ken Ichijouji. I remember places, events, faces, smells…

but for my life as Vriska, so far as I have very few concrete ‘memories’. Its more just ideas– what feels right. I often feel like I don’t ‘remember’ something until I start talking about it, and then I just sort of ‘know’ the way things were supposed to be.

You shouldn’t feel invalid just becuase you don’t have concrete memories Sometimes the events are not what we remember. Sometimes its just the sense of inhabiting another skin.

That said, its sometimes possible to trigger memories. Watch/read your source again. Do meditation. Draw your kintype. Focus your mind into your inner self. Sometimes you’ll come up with something.