Identity weirdness pt II

You can read everyone’s replies and discussion of my original post on this tag at my personal blog: http://captain-s-mindfang.tumblr.com/tagged/identity+weirdness

First of all, thank you to everyone who took the time to read and respond to my long, confusing post. Its really, REALLY appreciated. I think I got back to everyone, but if there’s someone I missed its not intentional and I’m really sorry!

The consensus seems definitely that there’s an element of genderfluidity to what I’ve been experiencing, which I agree with. Its funny because despite considering myself genderqueer ‘normally’ I only swing back and forth between male and butch female, whereas this…. this is very very femme. Joke’s on me I guess?

There was a little more variety of advice when it came to the unicorn thing. Basically it boiled down to it being some kind of hidden kintype, psychological kintype, or other-hearted connection. I think I agree with that, after some thought. Logically, and from an outside perspective it definitely sounds like a kintype. Its just so different from my experience as fictionkin, which I have always experienced as spiritual reincarnation, I have a hard time parsing it as ‘the same thing’. So I have some meditation and work to do on this side of things, but thanks to everyone I have a direction to look! I will probably start having to come to terms with a new form of kintype, or a hearttype, and figure out what part that plays in my internal narrative.

I’m definitely still tender, and still questioning things, but all the input has really helped. I, just as much as a lot of people do I think, have really benefited from the knowledge that my experiences aren’t completely out there and singular, and even if nobody’s felt the exact same thing, at least its similar enough to things that happen to other people.

If/when I have more info/perspective on this, I’ll post another update 🙂