/kind of a vent I’m sorry/ I’m so goddamn upset, I have 16 fucking kintypes and I feel so fucking AWFUL for it, like i’m making a mockery of fictionkin as a whole but no matter how many times i go back to each and every kintype and scrutinize it, they’re all still confirmed and i hate it! I never wanted to be kin, I don’t want these kintypes and maybe i should just go back to pretending i’m not kin at all! I don’t want this!
Its never good to pretend you’re not kin when you are, anon, and I think you know that. Trying to shut out feelings like that just makes them burst out at odd angles.
I understand having a lot of kintypes making you feel fake, and bad, but, the truth is some people just have that many kintypes, especially if they reincarnation based, but even under other origins. It doesn’t make you any less real.
“Too many” kintypes is not a number, and it doesn’t have anything to do with being taken seriously or not.
To me, ‘too many kintypes’ is when you start losing touch with what makes something kin. Being kin is inextricably tied up with memory, and loss and pain, and longing. Strong feelings that overwhelm you when you think of the life that you have lost. Its personal, deep soulsearching.
“Too many kintypes” is when you look at a character and go ‘lol, yup, that’s me” and add them neatly to your list without a further thought about it.
Too many kintypes is collecting kintypes for the sake of it, or because they remind you of yourself, or you relate to them a lot, or you like them.
Too many kintypes is having kintypes that don’t wake you up in the middle of the night with cold sweats of fear and loss.
Too many kintypes is finding a kinself in every fiction you watch/read.
Too many kintypes is when it cheapens the experience of being kin.
That doesn’t sound like you, anon.
Its hard having more than one kintype. I hated it when I found out I had more than one. Each kintype brings more confusion, more weird memories, more feelings and things you didn’t want to have to deal with again.
I’m here for you, anon. I know you can handle it. If you ever need help or want to vent my ask/messaging is always open.
