I feel like I’m questioning myself much too harshly. Basically, I constantly feel like all of my feelings were fabricated because I was just forming them to fit into this identity like a copycat, and it’s really intrusive. But no matter what, even after so many checks, I know the most vivid of experiences are real, and I still feel strongly like it’s my identity. But even so it comes back after a while, then leaves again. But I mean, kin can’t be confirmed so Im just over-questioning. I think.

It sounds like you’re definitely over-questioning it. Its okay. Its something we all do now and again, because you’re right, its not something that can be confirmed. I have moments and days where I doubt my whole identity and whether I’ve made it up too.

At the end of the day, however, what I accept is that it is real to me, because it is something that has an impact on my life. Its not something that I can put away and stop thinking about, or something I can prevent from influencing my thoughts and my life. If I could, I would. But I can’t. And that’s what makes me, and you, kin.