i am so damn confused. i’ve spent two years now thinking that i might be fictionkin, but i can’t come to definite answer. i’ve tended to push away any feelings (or memories???) of my kin that i have, because i don’t know what the hell to do with them. but they always come back, with bigger force. i have no idea if i AM fictionkin, or fictionhearted, or some other term that I don’t even know yet because there are so many to learn. i don’t even know why i sent this ask. im just so confused.

If you have to push away these feelings and they keep coming back, that’s a good indication that you may be kin, or have a…

is it a common thing to get memories and stuff from fanworks? like, fanfiction and things like that. i read a fic for one of my fickintypes recently and it felt like i was hit with a serious case of deja vu, like i was reading a description of something that happened to me, but this only happened once i’d gotten to a certain part of the fic

Fanworks can definitely trigger memories and feelings, especially if they capture something that was meaningful to you. It doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re kin specifically…

1/2 I very conflicted. I’ve been doubting this entire identity lately. When I battle my doubts, am I just denying the truth? Do I fabricate my kinfeels and memories to fit into this identity? Am I just using to cope, to fill the empty void in my identity depression left there? Am I just doing this to belong, because I don’t belong anywhere else? Then there’s a whole other series of “what-ifs.” I want to say I’m being too hard on myself, that this is truly where my heart lies and I have figured

2/3 myself out.But I also want to say I’m deluded and crazy, that this is just a fun game my brain put together for me,…